Im sure those of you who read this have read Sarahs post from yesterday. It's unbelievable. I feel so bad for her.
I was so scared when she called me at work. She said something happened and she didnt want to talk about it on the phone. It freaked me out. I panicked and took off and rushed home. I thought she had killed someone or something.
I still dont even know what to say.
I got to meet her parents today. It was the most nerve-racking experience in my entire life. I had to meet and talk to the people who literally hate me strictly for what I represent in Sarahs life. But, I was totally caught off guard when they immediately opened up and hugged me. I actually cried. It was beautiful. To finally see Sarah get what shes been asking for for the last 9 years was heart melting (Look at me being all sentimental. Im not usually like that, so you know how powerful of a situation it had to of been to get me feeling all mushy and warm inside).
I am so sad for her mom. I wont go in to details about all that. I know she plans on posting later on about it, so I wont steal it from her.
I will say that I am very sad that I only get to be part of this womans life for 2 months. Her mom is a very strong lady. Sarah is like her in more ways than either of them want to admit, I would bet. And her dad. He really made me feel welcome. I was proud of both Sarah and her parents for the way the conducted themselves around each other, especially with all the tension and questions and resentment.
This is going to be a very rough 2/3 months. I wish it didnt have to be like this for anyone, but I guess its a fact of life we all have to accept. It really makes you appreciate your own life even more, I know that much. Knowing that any day, at any time, someone could tell you that you only have 8 months to live. 8 months, and its all over. Its a very humbling thought.
Seeing what I saw today has really made me think about a lot of things, about people who I love very much, but dont speak to anymore because of stupid little things. They were some of the best people in my life, just like Angie is the best thing in Sarahs life, and any day they could be gone. It makes me love Sarah even more, as well. I could lose her in the blink of an eye. Will there be things I look back on and regret doing/not doing when she's gone? Yes, there would be, if I lost her right now. But now I know to take advantage of every minute I have with this girl, and never let anything pass us by.
Life is short. Too fucking short.